Dagwa Rose. Credit: Michael Lorenzo

Two weeks ago, I went beyond my normal desires and decided on the kind of life I want to live: a magical, spontaneous life, filled to the brim with synchronicity and gorgeous surprises. In forming this intention, I began the process of letting go of a lot of old beliefs about who I am, beliefs which served me well way back when, but which are no longer in alignment with who I’m choosing to be.

This morning, as I sit here at my computer looking out the window, I am filled with such gratitude. As I open myself to the spontaneous life, my life has been unfolding in such a fluid and organic way. Each day comes with such beautiful surprises - in a Field training analogy, I’ve opened that window, and people walking by are throwing those roses to me.

I’ve fallen back into a fully creative life, one which I had let go of, for reasons I can’t fully remember: I vaguely recall feeling busy, the harried busy-ness of a new mother. And then life changed, shifted, and I began to find time, time to explore my inner life, to come to know my inner self and fall in love with her all over again. And now, the missing piece has come back to me - my creativity, a creativity that’s beyond my writing, and in going beyond my writing, it’s inspiring my writing to depths I have never before felt.

This gorgeous world of art and creativity, helped in no small part by my decision to blog here as authentically as I can … this gorgeous world inspires me on a daily basis, in ways I had never dreamed of before. And my outer world has been shifting, fluidly and gently, to come into alignment with who I am inside.

This morning, my heart spills over with gratitude for this spontaneous life.

Tags: creativity, I Am, Spirit, spontaneity

I just came across a post at Creative Construction about a new film called Who Does She Think She Is? It’s about creative women and motherhood, and the choices that most mothers have, at one time or another, felt the pressure to make.

The film opens on October 17 - you can check out the screenings at Who Does She Think She Is? to see if it will be showing at a location near you. I had a little bit of trouble scrolling through the listings, but I don’t think there was a Canadian location listed. You can preorder the DVD, though, from the site.

Here’s the trailer:

This definitely looks like an interesting film to see.

Somewhere along the way, making yourself a priority has become, for many women, a sign of “selfishness”. My experience? When I care enough about myself to make “me” a priority, my happiness is reflected in the world around me - my husband, my children, my family and friends mirror the joy that I feel.

Sometimes, I look at my daughter, who’s 14, and I ask myself, Do I want her to grow up thinking her lot in life is to sacrifice her own needs and desires for those of others around her? The answer is always a very clear and resounding, “No, absolutely not.”

And I love who I am enough to have the same clear answer for myself.

Tags: creativity, Thoughts, video